Max Ernst, Configuration, 1974.
dont ever do this
So I sent him a text today and I was like mike ur pretty and he was like I don’t care about that right now. And obviously like I was joking. Like this was my attempt to make a fool of myself by saying something ridiculous to make him laugh. And there’s the effort right there like there’s me caring about wanting to make your day less shitty even for 1second. And he was like I appreciate that you think I’m slightly more attractive than an average guy but that’s not gonna help me right now. And I was so hurt by that like what the hell. And the other night I was like we need to talk and he was like great. So I went over and was like what’s going on with you like how are you feeling. And he straight up tells me I don’t want to talk about what’s wrong. And so I just sat there crying and he was like what’s wrong so I was like oh now you wanna talk. Like why am I expected to tell you everything and exactly what’s ailing me and you can be a stone. Like what the hell am I gonna put up with that for when you don’t even want to be with me. Like I miss having someone who I could be with and just genuinely enjoy their company. I miss being silly with someone who could out silly me.. I miss laughing. and joy. and surprises about nothing and just knowing someone is thinking about me. and that will never be him. Like why is it I have to walk on eggshells around you. Why is it that you invest all this time in me and for what? To be another friend. Like I don’t need another one of those. I don’t want that. Like yeah I care about you but what the hell is the point of being your friend if all you are is mean to me. You don’t even have to be yelling. Like the simple fact that you literally told me you don’t care hurts my feelings. Because I care. Because I care enough to want to make you happy.
Vincent van Gogh’s last words. (via forgettingtheday)
i hope u find someone that mindlessly plays with your hands and lightly strokes your legs and massages your back and plays with your hair and i hope that u feel like you’re home when u look at them
Like if you’re honestly not going to do things to show me you still want me around then why am I even here in the first place
Wow. You are really mean to me and I don’t deserve it. You actually hurt my feelings. Maybe people are right when they say that you will never be smart enough for me. We fight over really small and stupid things because you have a really small and stupid brain. You don’t even try to make me laugh anymore. You don’t even want me